keep looking up

RIP, Star Gazer.

And it was in the planetarium that the fragmented man found a certain unity. It was as if the great, lens-shaped dome, 66 1/2 feet across and four stories high, finally focused him. The ex-altar boy, the dramatist, the disc jockey, the musician with weak lungs and the stargazer with weak eyes all came together. The planetarium became his theater, his church, his concert hall, his home. He actually slept there for years, on a rollaway bed in his office.

He worked furiously, assembling a series of remarkable shows, more than 30 of them over the years, mixing sound and light, science and religion, the humorous and the sublime. He and his crew modified the planetarium's equipment to include huge speakers, powerful slide projectors, a battery of lasers and a zoom apparatus that could make planets float down through the starry void like giant, shimmering bubbles.

The effect was, and still is, dazzling. Horkheimer's shows are luminous, kinetic things, full of rapid-fire references to ancient history, mythology and language. In a recent show, "Night of the Vulcan Moon," Horkheimer managed to drag in Stonehenge, Abu Simbel, Pompeii, the Sinai desert and Mr. Spock of Star Trek. Fact rubs shoulders with fantasy. Ideas and images go off like Roman candles. The big Spitz projector wheels silently on its horseshoe mount, twinkling in the center of an encompassing darkness; and everything sparkles and echoes beneath the grand, overarching dome, against a myriad spangling of stars drifting in and out of pale blue clouds.

—"The Many Phases of Jack Horkheimer." Miami Herald, 1982.

what the garden grew

A small sampling. (Made pesto with the basil.)

most of all i wanna soar

More summer...



Kalamazoo Mall.



Jack!



Mary and Miles at Water Street.



Miles and Emily at Bell's beer garden.



Minis.



CC turned 30!



What a gal...



...so loved by so many.





Northern Michigan bd celebration.



Good boy.



Go swimming...jump on Ced's back...



...and that's how you make a bikini shirt.











"You know you're 30 when...your knees buckle and your belt won't."
...your back is hairier than your head," etc. SO true.



Nice arms, CC! (Sporty Spice.)





Back to La La Land.



Roosevelt.



Linker!



Vacay!



Pool by day.



Pool by night.











Soundcheck.



Testing out the sepia tone.





Being weird.



PCH!



There were a million photo shoots happening at El Capitan, so we staged one of our own.









Inn of the Seventh Ray!

neither here nor there

Mokoliʻi—a basalt island, not a home (except to wedge-tailed shearwaters). But what an island she is!

Q: Is there a place that's not the place you live, on which you fling a lot of feeling, that seems inexplicably meaningful to you in ways psychological and emotional?

1. Mokoliʻi/Chinaman's Hat, Oahu (if I were a wedge-tailed shearwater, that is!)
2. A San Juan Island.
3. Somewhere in French Polynesia (probably).
4. In the hills above Malibu.
5. Big Sur (when I get there).
6. The idea of Vermont.

For a while I've jokingly referred to the Northwest corner of the Pacific NW as my "Dream Landscape," but I'm actually quite serious. "Dream" as in sort of half-remembered from some other life/long-ago summer, and "dream" as in ideal: evergreen forests, islands, and lakes that feel like home to me.

I'm OK with the romanticism of the D.L. concept—that everyone has one or some place(s)/terrain(s)/climate(s) they're drawn to (dare I say spiritually?) more than others—and I even still like the ostentatious way Annie Dillard describes my D.L. in her 1977 book, Holy the Firm, when she was living on a remote island in the Puget Sound: "...the bluing of water with distance at the world's rim, and on it the far blue islands, and over these lights the light clouds."

A few years ago, I found another kind of Dream Landscape (or at least Dreaminess) in, of all places, Los Angeles—the Southwest corner of the SW. But instead of evoking old vibes, it felt entirely new to me: a place laid out differently than Chicago and bathed in another kind of light. Joan Didion warns: "California is a place in which a boom mentality and a sense of Chekhovian loss meet in uneasy suspension; in which the mind is troubled by some buried but ineradicable suspicion that things better work here, because here, beneath the immense bleached sky, is where we run out of continent." But the LA I like is based only on visits and curated by other people: Red Rock caves and Malibu beaches and juice bars tucked unassumingly into retail strips. I've gone back a few times each year, and each visit yields new things to like and find. Instead of thinking "things better work" out West, I tend to think "some things here just work better." At least (for me) the landscapes do, and the light. Maybe I'm just drawn to edges?

Q: Is it better to only visit Dream Landscapes, because you get to fling all that feeling onto them and then leave (before any dullness or disappointment sets in or the largeness of the place diminishes in your mind)? Or are there Dreamscapes that stay dreamy with residence—places you always felt you'd feel at home in, then do?

I think of stuff like this all the time, but anticipate no immediate As to my Qs, and so stay put.